Being Slow

I have a wound I am healing with right now and it requires much attention and care.  I am being with each movement as it lives.  As I open the door I put my carrying items down and open the door.  I am gathering back these items, reconnecting with them and moving through the doorway, slow-ly.  I am inhaling and experiencing it like friendly conversation because I am sl-ow.   What good good friends my breaths are.  For now I am so fortunate to be able to count on them.  

I was sitting eating dumplings, slowly, one and then dipping and then chewing and placing the fork and plate down.  Then picking everything up and starting again.  I was cross legged on the couch staring at our family's dog as he was blindly staring at me eating (he is blind).  I was chewing, breathing, chewing and staring.  I was resting in who I am and at the same time feeling no different than our dog in a way.  When I felt our interconnection I was giggling and sitting still, giggling.  

In slowness there is a scrumptious ability to communicate directly without honey-coating, as the slowness softens the edge and widens time to speak through the heart both inward and outward.  I have been working with my personality trait of being a "people pleaser".  I often push myself in little ways assuming my actions are making somebody else more pleased with me.  (How self conscious I am!)  I am recognizing when I am moving towards acting for this reason and when I act genuinely.  I spent all evening with a dear friend and we practiced experiencing how refreshing and pleasing it was to receive such direct heart.  We could say exactly what we wanted to say, nothing attached to our words, no expectations or assumptions and it was accessible because it was heartful.  Communication and simply being in this space is energizing and effortless.  The effort stems from remaining mindful as to where the words arise out of and then joyfully let { } be/flow.  Whether the joy is expressed through a sense of toughness or joy is expressed through aromatic rose petalled words is not what matters.  

What matters is truly being.  

Simply be what you are, be the master of the situation.  If you will just "be", then life flows around and through you.  This will lead you into working and communicating with someone, which ofcourse demands tremendous warmth and openness.  If you can afford to be what you are, then you do not need the "insurance policy" of trying to be a good person, a pious person, a compassionate person.

 Cutting through Spiritual Materialism, CTR.

Slow Fact, Cattle Style:  Did you know that a cow raised on good pasture chews about 30,000 bites
That is many chews of rhythm and presence.