dedicated to danika.

What I am Doing

In honoring the notion that one can hold all the rays of the sun, I have been simmering with my multidirectional path.  Two parts of this are actively engaging with the needs of this world, while recognizing the necessity for the change to stem from inner action and understanding.

Activism Part I

I am writing one day after the "Sandy"storm hit our Eastern coast.  Deep in my belly I know this storm to be the voice of Earth, asking to be heard, asking for her power to be appreciated and her needs to be met.  In this year's presidential election, there has been no mention of climate change.  Yet the health of our society relies on the well-being of our natural ecosystems, which holds our bounty:  our resources for energy, our sanity, our nourishment, our guidance on design and progress, and our connection to balance and magic.

Our current world is a distracting scene: from the media of our minds telling us how we and others should be,  to the news of the world around us selecting what they want us to consider truths.  Clouds of chaos seem to me to be the outcome.  Instead of allowing these clouds to coat our view, what if we let these clouds settle? What if we just stopped, and tenderly listened to our own hearts?  We would honestly know our next step, and I do not doubt for a moment that our steps would move with our natural world.  When I am quiet and open, I am in line with what is good for the sentient and non-sentient world.  

May our steps be directed from the winds and the sun of existence and may our actions not walk into the storm, but with it, in reverence and curiosity.  We are as much the leaf of a faded iris, as we are traders on Wallstreet.  However we identify ourselves, in the end the power of nature is what cradles our world together, and the state of our minds and hearts will dictate how long our clouds of chaos may persist.

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Part II

We pay attention with respect and interest, not in order to manipulate, but to understand what is true.  And seeing what is true, the heart becomes free.  Suzuki Roshi

Most of my thoughts have been trained to manipulate.  The alive moment is deeply colorful, textured, potent, simple, time insensitive, infantile, gone, liberated.  This alive moment travels along my neurotic pathways and is womanly handled into the categories I've created over my years of being human and before.  Some of these categories can begin with "should" and can relate to: happiness, feeling, good or bad idea, success,  comparison, vocabulary, sentence formation, body, use of time, living forever.........................

Recent studies have expressed that 10 full breaths of one intention redirects a single neuron's pathway, which also supports the truth that the brain is always changing.  And so right now I am paying attention to honesty and actuality and not habit.  And it is true that each time I pull my sensual experience out of the tiny categorized hole it jumps into, and just actually experience it, I would attribute the word freedom with my response.  I feel roomy breadths of satisfaction.  Now.                 Now.                    Now.